allow me to reintroduce myself...

my, my... it has been many weeks since I have typed in this little box hasn't it? Well then, I would apologize for laziness, but I'm just too cruel to be sorry. Well, now that I've probably lost whatever faithful readership I once had, I can speak without worrying about my offensive...ness...ity...thing. Yeah, so, I think I'll give a few tidbits about my recent life for starters.

(first on agenda) Yes, there was that one time about a month ago when I went on a Mission Trip to Brazil. For those still wondering, it was rather grand. I should probably write about that soon, eh? (No, seriously, I had a really fantastic time, and I really want to tell you about it, but I still haven't gotten the pictures all together)

(numba doix) The week before the last I was an atheist. Well, no, probably not quite an atheist, but I may as well have been one. It's okay, you don't need to worry. I've been doing plenty of worrying for myself. Seriously, it's really bewildering to have your entire belief system brought down with no singular reason. And I'm still there. Well, maybe you should worry for me. This is probably good for me, actually (most bad-tasting things are). I guess I've just needed to step outside myself to spy what I've become and reorient myself. And one thing's for sure: I don't want the easy way out. When I come out of this, I want to be sure of myself. I want to believe for reasons.

Actually, I'm not all that sure that I want to believe at all. Or at least not believe for the sake of belief. I guess I've kind of come to the conclusion that religion is a farce invented by humans (or perhaps the devil) in order to distract ourselves from liberating the oppressed and helping the needy (and it does this far too often. i quote: "When your religion turns you into the devil there just might be something wrong"). I've become all too ready to just run away and do something.

Wow, I'd better end this before it turns too much into a mindless rant. Haha, it's good to see you again too!