Numb

You know, I almost never feel this way when I'm around my friends. In fact, there is one place where I nearly always feel this way: home. A place which is slowly losing the meaning of that word.

"Feeling numb." Haha. An oxymoron.

I was feeling numb on the last of January. There were several reasons. One of them was my realization that I hadn't written any music or words of any sort all year (2007). Those who know me know that I have a passion for songwriting. To not write in a month is not only bizarre, but frightening. Especially since the last thing I wrote was a piece that I couldn't stand to finish, because it made me feel guilty and hypocritical. I felt like I had outright broken a vow with God. I was scared that God had decided to take away my passion.

Which is why this otherwise depressing and hopeless song made me so jovial. I could still write! So, behold the first song of 2007, which I would say adequately encompasses the numbness so felt.


(for all you "Google Reader"s, there's a song here)

Oh, and don't worry about me. I feel selfish like I'm trying to throw a pity party or something. Basically, this is a "Stuck in a Moment" song, and I'm pretty much out now.