Sunday, February 18, 2007

Alive

I really enjoy the winter.
(pause for dramatic effect)
Yep, believe it. There's just something in the chill of the night air. How the first breath catches halfway down your throat and refuses to thaw. How the stars shine especially bright and the fresh snow covers everything in purity. So beautiful. There's something in the cold that makes me feel so—small—but so fully alive. I love it.

That said, last week was the worst week so far this school year. I had such a wonderful time frolicking in the monstrous snowstorm with lovely ladies who would the next day become my Valentines (I beat Nikki 17 to 7!). I did practically no schoolwork or music department work. I had so much bonding time with friends, and even saw spiritual transformation in one of them.

All surrendered to the juggernaut of Junior Presentation. The whole class was in a great panic. Last-minute lines memorization and class song practice. Hours and hours of setup. Just a great bundle of stress. Nothing can fully describe the feelings leading up to this.

Oh, hey, distance from God doesn't help much either.

Then the moment came. The food was served. The curtains parted as the music started. (hey that's not a bad line! I'll need to come back to that.) Mistakes were made. Love and laughter repaired. All was weaved into song. It was beautiful.

In God we trust
We will have no fear
He's been leading us since freshman year
Now we choose to lead the world

Last week was the best week so far this school year.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

Numb

You know, I almost never feel this way when I'm around my friends. In fact, there is one place where I nearly always feel this way: home. A place which is slowly losing the meaning of that word.

"Feeling numb." Haha. An oxymoron.

I was feeling numb on the last of January. There were several reasons. One of them was my realization that I hadn't written any music or words of any sort all year (2007). Those who know me know that I have a passion for songwriting. To not write in a month is not only bizarre, but frightening. Especially since the last thing I wrote was a piece that I couldn't stand to finish, because it made me feel guilty and hypocritical. I felt like I had outright broken a vow with God. I was scared that God had decided to take away my passion.

Which is why this otherwise depressing and hopeless song made me so jovial. I could still write! So, behold the first song of 2007, which I would say adequately encompasses the numbness so felt.


(for all you "Google Reader"s, there's a song here)

Oh, and don't worry about me. I feel selfish like I'm trying to throw a pity party or something. Basically, this is a "Stuck in a Moment" song, and I'm pretty much out now.

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Emily suggested to me

Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. Lumberjack!
2. Maker of Salad
3. Dogsitter (tough work right there)
4. Guitar Nerd

Four Movies you would watch over and over:
1. Fantasia 2000
2. School of Rock
3. Rattle and Hum (the U2 ROCKUMENTARY!)
4. anything Lord of the Rings

Four Places you have lived:
1. The roof outside my room
2. Washington, DC
3. Anywhere with a guitar on a starry, starry night
4. All over Laurel Lake Camp

Four of your favorite foods:
1. Piña! (especially in Ecuador)
2. My Gran's world-famous mac'n'cheese
3. Flores food ('nuff said)
4. Abreu food (once again...)

Places you’d rather be right now:
1. Washington, DC (and i will be this Wednesday!)
2. In the Alps with my wife, sipping hot cocoa after a long day skiing (if i had one, i mean) ;)
3. In Mexico, singing with Bel Canto again
4. At Laurel Lake Camp

People I hope will respond by posting on their blogs:
1. Dan
2. Emily (mi hermana!)
3. Emily (emilia!)
4. Crowder (hey why not?)

Friday, February 02, 2007

it is in moments like these when no words come
with the moon just bright enough not to blot the stars
the fresh snow resting deeply in the surrounding forest
all is calm
all is pure
and in this moment all is perfect
even with all that has made us dirty
maybe He can still look at us and say
it is good
and it is in moments like these
when i am alive
when the words are formed
but no sound comes
Your love is so amazing
i can't begin to speak
unearthly captivating me
You know i can't conceive
and i can't get off my knees